Thursday, November 5, 2015

Ten Years!

This year has been a year of milestones for our family.  Our eldest daughter turned 21, our middle daughter turned 18 and our son turned 16.  NOW my husband and I are celebrating 10 years of marriage.  It has been quite a journey to this point. 

It was a beautiful autumn day.  The leaves on the trees were very vibrant.  The temperature was around 70 degrees (much like it will be here today!).  We were blessed to be able to be married at the Genesee Country Village and Museum.  As many of you know we absolutely love it there so becoming husband and wife here was a natural fit.

We have had quite a bumpy road.  We have walked together through happy times and difficult times.  We experienced death of loved ones and the birth of nieces and nephews. 

At times it feels like we have been married a lot longer than 10 years.  Other times it feels like we are still newlyweds. 

The kids were just little ones on this day 10 years ago.  I am amazed everyday at how my husband stepped into the roll of father to these kids.  He loves them like they are his own.  Never once has he made them feel like they were not. 

Not only did we become husband and wife on this day, we also became a family. 

We were in financial trouble on the day we were married.  Our bank account was empty but our hands were full.  Never once have we left each other hanging in times of trials.  Matt is my rock.  He holds me up even when I do not know I need it.  He is always there for me and the kids. 

2005 was a very difficult year for my family.  My sister was walking through a very serious medical problem that had her fighting for her life at times.  We were so happy when she was able to attend our wedding. 

In the past 10 years we have lost very dear loved ones.  I miss them each and everyday.  My grandfather, my great-grandmother, and Matt's brother.  I am happy they were able to be a part of our day.

The kids were so excited for our wedding.  They were all so happy to be apart of this day.  Andrew was worried the whole day that we would be leaving and never coming back.  He was attached to us the whole day. 

I just love this church.  It was a perfect fit for us.  Even to this day we go in and sit to reminisce of that day.  When we go on the Yuletide tour at the museum it is one of the stops we look forward to .  The church is all aglow in candlelight.

My Grandpa and Grandma McClure.  I miss my grandfather each and everyday.

Grandpa and Grandma Godown with my great-grandmother

My parents


The minister forgot to advise Matt to kiss his bride....but that didn't stop us. 

My family. Minus a few nieces and nephews.

The bridal party.

Matt and his brothers.  I love this picture.  His brother Dave on the right end passed away a few years ago.  What I wouldn't give for one of his jokes. 

Happy Anniversary to my husband!!  I love you more today than I did yesterday, but not as much as tomorrow.

Monday, October 12, 2015

To my son on his16th Birthday!

Well where do I begin?  I cannot believe my "baby" is turning 16 today.  Wasn't it just yesterday I was sitting there holding a bundle of joy in the hospital.  It seems like just yesterday you were so proud of yourself for learning how to ride a bicycle without training wheels.  Now soon you will be learning how to drive a car. 

16 years ago today
They placed you in my arms
I became a mother again for the third time

You learned to walk, to read
Each day brought something new
No more my little boy
You hurt, I cried, you grew
Sometimes you didn't need me
didn't want to hold my hand
Your independence made you proud
But me a little sad

I blinked my eyes, I turned around
your almost grown I see
Why did it go so fast?
A few more moments please

In your struggle to spread your wings
 We sometimes don't get along
But I'm always on your side
I'll always be your mom

You can't stop time, can't hold it back
Can't stop the ocean's tide
The good person that you are
Fills my heart with pride

In my eyes there is no one like you
 I can not wait to see what you'll become
My pride and joy, I love you
Happy birthday to my son!

Sunday, September 13, 2015

24 Years in the Making!!

When I was 18 I joined our local fire department.  I loved being in the fire department.  I've been looking around for some pictures of me during that time.  So far no luck.  But anyway, in addition to being on the fire side of the department, I was also a member of the ambulance.  I had completed my CFR (Certified First Responder).  I was pretty much the extra set of hands on the ambulance.  I loved it as well.  In life you just know when something is your calling in life.  I took my EMT (Emergency Medical Technician) course for the first time when I was 18.  I did not pass it that first time.  Honestly, I did not really apply myself in the coursework.  I did not study like I should have.  But I was only 18 years old after all. 

Even though I had not passed the EMT exam I still had such a desire to one day become an EMT.  Well then my children started making their appearance.  I could not dedicate the amount of time needed and raise my children.  So like most parents do I place my dream on the back burner.  During this time I still would read anything I could about emergency medicine. 

In 2001 I decided I was going to try it once again.  My kids were 8, 5 and 2.  I still had not given up my dream of becoming an EMT.  I had just placed it on the back burner of life.  So I registered for my class and was all set to begin.  I went through the class and thought I was on my way to fulfilling that dream.  Then on my way to one of my final classes (auto extrication of all things) I lost control of my car on slick roads and hit a tree after a deer jumped out in front of me.  My instructor said she was not going to let me take the state exam because I missed class.  I was heartbroken.  I was starting to think that although this was my dream perhaps God did not want me in this position. So I went on raising my children.  Do not get me wrong, I LOVED being a mom and raising my kids.  But there was this "thing" missing from my life. 

Fast forward to present day!  My kids are now 21, 18 and 15.  My time is now!  I was more determined than ever to become a NYS EMT.  I heard that less than 5 minutes from my house an EMT course was going to be starting up on April 29.  Perfect!  I did not have drive far at all.  The course proved to be very difficult.  Then came that dreaded final extrication!  You will never guess what happened?!  No not a car accident this time.

It was hot and I guess I was sweating more than I had thought.  I was close to passing out.  But really I just wanted to see what it was like to be a patient.  Haha! I was experiencing a case of heat exhaustion.  My blood pressure was very low!!  I am thankful (VERY thankful) they were able to convince me to go to the hospital via ambulance.  I honestly did not have the mindset to argue with them.  The color was gone from my face for a while, I could not focus on anything and I was becoming short of breath.  That was very scary for me!   But there is one thing you must know about me....I am a fighter!!  My state practical exam was just 2 days away from this incident!  Which I passed with flying colors! 

The written exam was what I was most worried about.  I have never been very good at taking exams.  I locked myself in my room nightly until the exam.  I was SO nervous.  My brother-in-law was at the testing center and really helped put my nerves in check.  I decided I was going to take the full time allowed for the exam, which was 110 questions.  Ten of the questions are pilot questions and do not count towards the grade.  We had 2 hours (I think) to complete the exam.  I took the whole time.  I was one of the last out of the room.  I wanted to really read the questions and take time to answer. 

The exam proctor told me it would be about 6 weeks before I heard anything.  So I waited!  I have never been good at waiting.  I tried to fill up my time, Cleaning the house, bothering my husband (haha!) pacing around, and stalking the mailman.  Well this past Thursday I received a text from my instructor!! I had passed the state exam!  I was now a New York State EMT!  I was sitting in a restaurant having breakfast with my sister when I got the text.  I was in shock!  I read it again, I read it out loud to her (just in case my mind was playing tricks on me).  I wanted to cry.  I could not text people fast enough!  First my husband, then my agency, then family!  I went right up to my agency's director of operations and scheduled some shifts to start my training!  So my words of advice to everyone out there.... Do not give up on a dream because it seems unreachable!  When God says no it may not be a forever no.  It could just be a wait a while kind of no.  Or in my case wait 24 years!